Okay so lets give this thing a shot

Okay so this is sort of a test to see how this thing works out. I have decided that I need something a little more fullfilling than the BS that floats on MySpace, and thought maybe I would give this a try. I have toyed with the idea for years about obtaining honest to god webspace, but I am a virtual idiot when it comes to that sort of thing.

A little bit about me. I am 24 years old. I have two beautiful children, Matthew, 3, and Caitlin, 3 months. I am in the process of a divorce that I have a feeling is going to leave both parties involved with a sense of failure, as I dont think anyone is going to get what they want entirely.

See, I want what I feel is best for my kids, and he wants what he feels is best for the kids. That, of course, is where we seem to disagree.

I live in Florida now. Grew up on Long Island, New York until I was about 17. Graduated high school, had this failed attempt at college due to finances and personal situations with my sons health. Ran a business doing medical transcription for four years, and then essentially got laid off and have not been able to find work since. I now work for Walmart , and who knows what will come from here.

I seem to have made a good impression so far, as everyone seems to be entirely pleased with me thus far. But can this really be a career, or just a mere stepping stone until what I really want can become a reality.

And there is a big part of the problem. I have no idea what I want. I thought I knew at one point, but I seem to have lost track of that somewhere along the way. Now I guess it is just a matter of trying things out to see what fits.

The next several months or so proves to be a very interesting journey. I will keep posting updates along the way. Be forewarned that I tend to ramble and rant on a bit. When I am happy, I want to share it with everything, and the same goes for when I think life has gone to utter crap.

I also do some writing, some poetry, some quasi-inspirational type musings. There is a crapload of stuff i have posted on Myspace that i will probably copy here to give you a taste of my writing.

Okay, so perhaps this is enough for one evening. Goodnight and good sleep to all. IF anyone out there is actually reading this far still, thank you. I promise it will be worth it in the end.